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But the 'delirium' could only last three days longer, for he had to return to Rouen on the<a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/">football jerseys</a> 29th. In this mood of despera¬tion, reawakened passion, consciousness of advancing years, and time flying, he wrote in the diary on the 30th:
Letter from Charlotte. Nowhere else could I find such deep and sweet affection. How many <a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/">NFL jerseys</a>years of happiness lost, even if I recover what I have so foolishly thrown away 1 Wrote to Char¬lotte. Began a novel which will be our story. Any other work would be out of the question. Boring evening. Scenes. The fault is mine; I must do as little harm as possible. Alas I I am all too clearly doomed to do so some day.
But this 'novel* was not Adolphe. How could a novel 'which will be our story' possibly<a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/">cheap jerseys</a> be Adolphe? But early editions of the diary, and even Jean Mistier in 1945 (quoted by Harold Nicolson in his book in 1949), give this vital entry not only for a different date but as 'a novel which will be my own story\ The proper text was not published until 1952, by Alfred Roulin,and it is the one given in the Pl&ade edition of <a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/html/New-Orleans-Saints-product-53/"> New Orleans Saints</a>Constant's works. Hence all the confusion. Generations of commentators and critics have assumed that this quotation was all that needed to be said about the genesis of Adolphe.
But there is a little more. Benjamin worked on for some days with <a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/html/Minnesota-Vikings-product-51/">Minnesota Vikings</a>his mind full of Charlotte, but then, on the ioth of November, comes this entry:
... Got on with my episode of Ellenore. I gready doubt whether I have enough perseverance to finish the novel ...

When she met Benjamin she was thirty-eight and he thirty-three. The affair blazed up at <a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/">football jerseys</a> once into a passionate attachment and followed a familiar pattern. Poor Anna fell genuinely in love with Benjamin and was prepared to leave her lover and children to marry him, but he, the chase having ended with capture of the prey, immediately took fright at becoming too involved and began to cool, the process being accelerated when things<a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/">NFL jerseys</a> be¬came dangerous owing to the arrival in Paris not only of M. de Lamoignon but also of Mme de Stael. By May 1801 Anna had left Paris, broken-hearted, and Germaine resum¬ed her sway, soon asserting her authority by taking him with her for a protracted tour of Germany in search of material for her projected book on German thought <a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/">cheap jerseys</a>and literature. There Mme de Stael terrified everybody by her merciless interrogations. The story is told that at Weimar, Goethe was so worn out that he decided to take to his bed with a diplomatic illness from which he did <a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/html/New-Orleans-Saints-product-53/"> New Orleans Saints</a>not recover until sure that she had left the town. However that may be, Benja¬min Constant seems to have been a success with the great man.
Yet another chance of escape came in the spring of 1804, when Mme de Stael passed on her triumphal way from Wei¬mar to Berlin and Benjamin went back alone to Lausanne. But this time it was his character that brought him back to her. He arrived at Lausanne on the 7th of April, and on the 9th, Necker, Germaine's father, died at Coppet. Immediately Benjamin was overcome with pity and anxiety<a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/html/Minnesota-Vikings-product-51/">Minnesota Vikings</a> and left at once for Germany to comfort Germaine in her grief and loneliness. He was more firmly tied than ever.

It is probable that Mme de Stael's next child, Al- bertine de Stael, born in 1797, was his. <a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/">football jerseys</a> Not that all the time was spent in love-making, scenes, and play-acting, for to¬gether they worked at their writing (nothing ever stopped her writing), and while she was working on her books he was producing some remarkable political pamphlets and put¬ting in time at his hobby and life work, the history of com¬parative religions.
Such<a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/">NFL jerseys</a> intensity could not be maintained by an ordinary man, especially when Germaine's tyranny became more and more imperious. She would allow Benjamin leave of ab¬sence only on condition that he return at a stated time, she would demand to read his<a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/">cheap jerseys</a> letters, she was not above making scenes in public, and if he overstayed a leave of absence she would drive in her grand coach to where he was and bring him back. Humiliations would be followed by passionate reconciliations, and always Benjamin's moral cowardice and genuine affection and pity would prevent him from<a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/html/New-Orleans-Saints-product-53/"> New Orleans Saints</a> mak¬ing the break he constantly swore to himself to delay no longer.
A chance came in the late autumn of 1800. While tempor¬arily alone in Paris Benjamin met in the salon of his good friend Mme Talma, wife of the great actor, a woman about five years older than himself, known as Anna Lindsay. Anna was the daughter of an Irish innkeeper of Calais, named O'Dwyer, but, having as a child charmed the Duchesse de Fitz-James, a guest at the inn, she had been brought up amid Parisian ai s and graces. At about sixteen she had left the Duchess, <a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/html/Minnesota-Vikings-product-51/">Minnesota Vikings</a>been 'protected' by various gentlemen, and had eventually become, in 1789, mistress of M. de Lamoignon, by whom she had had two children and with whom she had been living for eleven years.

And so the situation dragged on. His diary records more and more appalling scenes, more<a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/">football jerseys</a> and more vows to break with the tyrant, more and more cowardly surrenders. And then, out of the blue, Charlotte came back into his life. They saw each other at the end of 1804 after eleven years of separa¬tion. She had divorced Marenholz and married again in 1798, her second husband being a Frenchman, M. du Tertre. The revival of this old love after all these years turned the stormy, uncomfortable existence with Mme de Stael into an intolerable hell. In October 1806 he was with Mme de Stael at Rouen. <a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/">NFL jerseys</a> On the 18th he left for Paris. The following ex¬tracts from the Journal in time tell the story and show up Benjamin's peculiar blend of passion and cold-blooded analy¬sis (in the numerical code 1 = sexual pleasure, 12 = love for Charlotte):
19th. ... visited Mme du Tertre. She is much improved in looks. I think I have begun to make <a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/">cheap jerseys</a>my meaning clear. If so, we arc well away for 12. Dined with Prosper [de Barante]. I mean this evening to go as far as possible with Charlotte. I will write down the result tomorrow. Wrote this evening to Mme de Stael [italics Constant's],
20th. Charlotte has yielded. Consequendy 1. Afterwards I did what I could to calm her. Hope I have succeeded. ... Wrote to Mme de Stael. Dined at Charlotte's, <a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/html/New-Orleans-Saints-product-53/"> New Orleans Saints</a> i. for the second time. This time no doubt whatever ...
21st. Letter from Mme de Stael: She is plaguing me about return¬ing and won't even allow me time to finish my jobs. 25th. Today I enter my fortieth year. Fugaces labuntur anni ... 26th. Day of madness. Delirium of love. What the <a href="http://www.nfljerseys-shopping.com/html/Minnesota-Vikings-product-51/">Minnesota Vikings</a>devil does it mean P It is ten years since I have felt anything like this ... I want Charlotte, I want her at all costs ...

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